we are not cuts waiting
to be stitched back together
by the right person, but
each person we meet
is a thread—a link in the
chain that helps you mend
yourself. you are not helpless.
my biggest fear is I’m married & my husband says, “let’s cut sugar out of our diet” so I have to leave with the kids in the middle of the night
People who know me know I am very ME. I’m loud, I demand attention, I don’t take any bullshit. But I’m also SO emotional and needy and soft. I’m ME. And I have my good days and my bad days. Days when I just can’t face the world or care about that paper I was supposed to write because I’m depressed. And then I have the days when I’m in charge and productive and I feel strong. It’s just so odd to me that those two extremes can coexist within me. And they probably only partly do. Because on a “blue day” I am so FRUSTRATED with myself. I see what I’m doing, I see how self-destructive it is, and I do it anyway. I want to succeed. I want to EXCEL. And now it just seems like I’m holding myself back. My grades are shit. They’re complete and utter shit. And I just don’t know if I have anything better in me. And that’s so scary.